No More Clouds

It's a lot to compensate so I start small and do a little everyday Wish I could wake up happier, the stench of disappointment overwhelms me Oh find peace, find me Oh find peace, find me I found an answer and it wasn't what I'd thought it be Getting over 40 years of doubt It took me looking in then out then accepting what my soul is about 40 years of doubt but no more clouds Always been so jealous of the people who make choosing look so easy Some saw truth in mirrors and then didn't fight against their own best interest Oh find peace, find me Oh find peace, find me I found an answer and it wasn't what I'd thought it be Getting over 40 years of doubt It took me looking in then out then accepting what my soul is about 40 years of doubt but no more clouds The sun is down and I'm too drunk and tired to worry about what's down... Inside of me, you can't see the bleed, but it's still flowing like a river clearing out the last debris My skin is getting looser and my heart is getting calloused as I grow Never thought it would be easy but I never thought it'd hurt so bad to fall Find me Find me I found an answer and it wasn't what I'd thought it be Getting over 40 years of doubt It took me looking in then out then accepting what my soul is about 40 years of doubt but no more clouds In the corner there's no light like a spider traps the fly Now 40 more until we say goodbye