For what seems like the thousandth time

I'm searching to feel something, anything, everything, or nothing at all (tell me what is real)

I've lost all sense of direction

I've become consumed by this infection

Grasping at straws

I've begun to tell myself it's just an inherent flaw

These wayward memories

Normality is nothing but a fantasy

Holding on, but breaking down

You're letting on, and taking it out on me

Evaporate, someone else can take my place

The same old song, stuck on repeat

For far too long, signal defeat

Waiting to wither, just longing to dissolve

I've forgotten what it's like to have certainty

This doubt, it secures it's grip without my knowing

I long for just a single moment of relief

Will I ever find piece?

(Can you help me find my way?)

Did you ever expect to find me in this room locked inside my mind?

(Don't listen if I'm begging you to stay)

I beg you to leave behind what I have shown

Before you, too, become trapped inside this hell

We find ourselves bleeding dry

By the choices and the promises we made

So, tell me, am I right to verify

That this will be the last light in your eyes?

All the love I have shown, all the love I have felt

Will it ever be enough to save me from this hell?

Holding on, but breaking down

You're letting on, and taking it out on me

Evaporate, someone else can take my place

The same old song, stuck on repeat

For far too long, signal defeat

Waiting to wither, just longing to dissolve

Can you help me find my way?

Don't listen if I'm begging you to stay