Mental

Thoughts in my mental I can't even think straight without popping prescriptions Mixing it with liquor Tryna find a way to make life so simple It gets harder everyday, I swear life's so difficult I gotta keep a pistol, I can't trust too many niggas I been hurt too many times, and I done loved too many bitches I made it through the struggle, swear to God as my witness It was hard, but I did it, thanking God every second Every minute I repent it, Lord forgive me, I was sinning I was tripping, I was tryna find a way to hide my feelings, yeah I was tryna find a way to handle business, yeah I was tryna find a place to raise my children, yeah I ain't have nowhere to stay, I swear, I didn't, yeah Just got a text from my lil partner, say he just got robbed No disrespect, I swear, I love you, but that ain't my problem Going through so much, I got my own, and you can't help me solve 'em When you was up, didn't put me on, I just kept taking losses Gonna lose myself in my own mind, 'cause I keep seeing demons Scared to fall asleep or close my Eyes, terrified I might stop breathing If I overdosed and died right now, They wouldn't know 'til they tweet it Nobody checks if I'm alive, only call when they need me Thinkin' to myself how it would've been, If I never lose my cousin or my closest friend All these niggas act like they love me, but they just pretend Tryna find my way up out that place, its like I'm stuck again I've been on drugs again, Tryna drown my problems and my pain with this cup of Henn Bitch knew I was fucked up by the way a nigga stumbled in Residue all on my face, I'm fucking up again I lost my heart, walked away, I'm losing love again And I've been going through some things I just can't understand Said I've been going through some things I just don't understand Losing friends, tryna find myself again Staring in the mirror, I don't know who I am I ain't seen my children in a minute, damn What the fuck got into me? Nigga talkin' 'bout killin' me Keep guns for my enemies Bitch say she ain't feelin' me I'm a good nigga with bad energy She wanna fuck, I wanna go to sleep God, I see the devil in my dreams But nobody understand when I said it Gotta see a doctor, tryna see where my head is Gotta see a doctor 'cause I need some more medicine Try to get so high that I can't feel nothing Try to get so high that my body get numb Tryna get so high that I can't feel love Swear I get so high, they can't wake me up Swear I get so high, they can't wake me up