Seasons

I sat down next to the Lord and I said do you want me alive Or do you want me dead Do you want to take me Cause I am done fighting today I sat down next to my man and I said Do you want to leave me or love me instead Do you want to stay here And wait for this season to end But he walked out the door Said I'm sorry and can we be friends And I let him go So that I could let the right one in I sat down next to my priest and I prayed I don't know why I'm here I just know I'm not saved I don't have the answers, I just know that I'm not ok So he held my hand tighter Said child, but you are his today You're fighting too hard And you always get in your own way I sat down next to my father and said I know you're not here but you are in my head I know that you're sorry for leaving me when I was five I heard him say I should never have left you behind I heard him pray and ask God for a little more time I heard him say that I was the love of his life And that he's beside me right now making sure I'm alright