Really?

Three decades down Probably a few more left to go I always though it would be a little easier But I don't know Am I doing alright? Alright, alright, alright I think I'm doing okay Am I doing alright? Alright, alright, alright I'll figure it out one of these fucking days I think I'm doing okay I was told I could do anything So I set my sights high and spread my wings But I guess I can't fly any higher Douse my aspirations in gasoline And spark up my lighter You got to be kidding me Is this really all I'll ever be? Stumbling through this reality You got to be kidding me Is this really all I'll ever be? Stuck in something ordinary I just wanna say meaningful things But I don't know how to say meaningful things So I guess I'm not much of a writer Douse my pointless words in gasoline And spark up my lighter You got to be kidding me Is this really all I'll ever be? Stumbling through this reality You got to be kidding me Is this really all I'll ever be? Stuck in something ordinary I'm trying to spill my heart out But I'm making no sense at all I can't think through this fucking headache Holy shit, where's the Tylenol? I'm trying not to throw my back out When I stand up for myself Maybe I'll go back to bed 'Cause it's better for my health You got to be kidding me Is this really all I'll ever be? You got to be kidding me Is this really all I'll ever be?