All Our Years

I hold what you told me All our years ago It was so cold to see you fold and break All our years ago You took a slow dose of poison for nearly ten years The bug spread to your head and manifested all your fears In the cold light of day, I watched you fight away the tears You wouldn't let me help, accused me, when I interfered I tried to reassure, one too many times, you wouldn't listen So I had to close the door and leave you to the sort And I'll admit it, now my IQ has matured If I had the skills back then, I would've done more But I wouldn't have you hold it against me 'Cause you were in deep and the stretch would be lengthy Bad feeling, a plenty, my resources were empty Fighting to pay back the bad advise that you lend me Felt the weight of the world on my shoulders Trying to stay balanced while I'm carrying boulders That was how I lived, it made me cold-hearted and sober I found connection with the Jackson and ended up as the Joker I hold what you told me All our years ago It was so cold to see you fold and break I hold what you told me All our years ago It was so cold to see you fold and break All our years ago And so it starts, a trip to the dark art Taken apart your past, until for breath you can't gasp Strangled by the pressure of wearing a mask Life will always take you down to the task How can I say this any other way The pain that led me astray, astray caused more pain In the grips of addiction I became overtaken by the lust for gain The irony stayin', my senses remainin' You know it's real, I speak straight from the depths This shit is about as personal as it gets There's no time like the present I guess Here it is, the state of unrest, while I try and digress And yeah, I've realised that these memories will never go away They're part of who I am, a fabric fitted to my brain What doesn't kill you makes you stronger Truth in what they say, so it's comforting to know that I'm okay I hold what you told me All our years ago It was so cold to see you fold and break All our years ago I hold what you told me All our years ago It was so cold to see you fold and break All our years ago All our years ago All our years ago