Fear Future

I've been feeling afraid of the future Something's coming, oh what's around the bend? Is it the end? The bell is sounding, we're lining up Hearts are full, no choice of giving up Have you had enough? Alleviating anxiety's failing Throat's gone raw, the smoke I'm inhaling I'm counting serendipity As all my thoughts came crashing down on me I only have myself to blame I cut you off when you called me by my mother's name The one she gave to me before my heart could hold a beat Why do we always take this so personal? You said it so, and I thought I knew It's easier to focus on the bullshit Everything that's wrong Forsake what you think you are For something better, it's forged in fire I know it hurts My heart's been changing and I am with it I search for wholeness, I'm sure to lose some things I don't think I'll miss them My faith's been tested like a certification Have you been learning, or have you been sleeping? I need you to see this 'Cause for the third time since I've started I've lost my meaning, on the ride, but I wanna get off it I need to know if it's worth it I only have myself to blame I cut you off when you called me by my father's name The one he gave to me before his heart could hold a beat Why do we always take this so personal? You said it so, and I thought I knew It's easier to focus on the bullshit Everything that's wrong It takes some effort to look between To see the beauty in everything