Sick

Way too much time to kill And not enough days to live I'm getting older by the minute It's hard when you get sick And I don't know what to do I stay inside my room And I don't want to move And I don't wanna do anything And I get drunk and high And I puke on myself And my dad won't ever call Or function like he should And you cry inside the bathroom And you say it's fucking shit This family's fucking shit I'm a fuck up of a kid And I'm so ignorant And I'm so full of it And it makes me fucking sick And it makes me fucking sick And it makes me- Even if I didn't think about it I'd still dream about it And I dream all of the time Even if I didn't think about it I'd still dream about it And I dream all of the time Even if I didn't think about it I'd still dream about it And I dream all of the time Even if I didn't think about it I'd still dream about it Way too much time to care And not enough days to kill I'm getting older by the minute It's hard when you get sick And I don't know what I'd do If I ever lost you It wouldn't hurt at all And you probably wouldn't feel anything You ask me again and again "Why did I get so unlucky?" And I never know the answer And I'll never know the answer I have a cross on my necklace You hate that I still wear it You say you just don't get it And I can't, I can't accept it It all seems so pathetic From my twisted perspective And it makes me fucking sick And it makes me fucking sick And it makes me- Even if I didn't think about it I'd still dream about it And I dream all of the time Even if I didn't think about it I'd still dream about it And I dream all of the time Even if I didn't think about it I'd still dream about it And I dream all of the time Even if I didn't think about it I'd still dream about it Are my eyes working right? Am I seeing double? Is there something wrong? Are my parents in trouble? Is my heart beating too fast? Are my lungs clean? Do I seem off to you? Do I force myself to breathe? Am I slurring my words? Am I forgetting most things? Am I out of it? Am I shaking when I think? Do my hands look shaky to you? Do my hands look shaky to you? Do my hands look shaky to you? Do my hands look shaky to you?