Arrive (feat. Lex Lingo)

I swear to god I'ma have to die Before I feel alive I'm already gone Half the time But I still arrive I swear to god I'ma have to die Before I feel alive I'm already gone Half the time But I still arrive Lookin down the barrel of a gun again Might regret it if i think on what I done again Evil like the nicotine i roll it in I accept it tho I wouldn't take the mulligan Smoking hoping I could stay numb to it I always seem to stumble when they run through it Goin through the motions but i swear I won't do it no more I been tryna stay positive Tryna keep my head above the water and Tryna find a reason to keep bothering I know that somethings gotta give I swear to god I'ma have to die Before I feel alive I'm already gone Half the time But I still arrive I swear to god I'ma have to die Before I feel alive I'm already gone Half the time But I still arrive Each day same as last day sick of the routine can't get my act straight. I like to step up out of bed and shoot myself in the foot Covered up the mirror too scared to look I'm feeling ugly Feel like it's a lie and you don't love me Always takin hits like it's rugby Life been a bitch smiling smugly Smoking hoping I could stay numb to it I always seem to stumble when they run through it Goin through the motions but i swear I won't do it no more I swear to god I'ma have to die Before I feel alive I'm already gone Half the time But I still arrive I swear to god I'ma have to die Before I feel alive I'm already gone Half the time But I still arrive Swear to god I'ma have to die Swear to god i'ma have to die I'm already gone half the time But I still arrive