I’m so numb (x4)

I been changing every single week

Don’t know if I’m getting stronger or if I’m getting weak

Don’t know if what I been writing is enough for y’all to be -

Content with, so I just been writing as a release, cause

That shit’s an understatement when I say my head is cloudy

This shit comes around yearly, I just never tell nobody

They think I’m awkward and shy but the truth is I’m lost in my mind

Trynna conquer a simple conversation is like I’m solving for PI

I be feelin’ like I’m Batman in Gotham sometimes

Trynna save myself, yeah, my thoughts are the crime

Can’t tell if they even fightin’ with these prosthetic eyes that I’m seein’ through

Only call them fake cause they the Windows to the soul but if you looked in mine, you wouldn’t see a clue

Not a sign of a life, wish that I could counteract that line but I’m still finding the light myself

I’m so numb (x4)

I be feelin’ so numb sometimes

And I don’t even wanna go outside, I’m numb

I’m numb

See, all my life I been the joke of the conversation

So Identifying love is a task, cause I been soakin’ in all the hatred

I really be questionin’ every soul that’s around me hangin’

Like why you even fuck with me? I know that I’m not the greatest to be around

You can leave me now, it really ain’t a thing see

Cause I’m so vulnerable it tends to get me labeled crazy

And then you’ll put up a front like you with what I be saying

Then you’ll tell everyone how I’m weird and that you straight up hate me

That’s how it goes, ain’t it?

Friend or foe, it’s the same shit

Alone is an understatement, I might just Cobain it

No I’m playing, but the thought is so euphoric

To go to sleep and not wake up, that’s what I call good morning (mourning)

And I know this is a phase but it’s more like a vicious cycle and it keeps repeating itself every time I think that I strike gold

Unfiltered thoughts, I hope it made someone feel less alone

But I hate that my family hears it, it just make me feel I’m less at home

I’m so numb (x4)

I be feelin’ so numb sometimes

And I don’t even wanna go outside, I’m numb

I’m numb

I’m so numb (x4)