Man Vs. Man

Im getting sick of him honestly hes becoming a nuisance I want to body him right now my conscience has two cents And bet top dollar that I always give in living in regret from everytime I never did him in This beefs been raging for a long time Ever since I could remember his presence was like a b line Aimed at everything I worked towards momma told me stay away It was like she didnt have vocal chords Her concern fell on deaf ears well at least to him but my years when I was feeling grown didnt want to listen and was feeling like a rebel He quickly became my next of kin My only treasure was the pleasure of the pain caused And his reaction to my damage was the clear cost I despise every fiber of what he stands for looking in the mirror I tell him lets even up the score They never told me I could be my own enemy Man vs Man has afflicted me I can hear him speaking right now He says hes biding his time until I let him out When Im walking with my daughter when Im riding in my whip Or Im heading to the store just grab a bag of chips When too many people are present and looks get exchanged Thats when my blood runs cold and my thoughts turn deranged I can tell I can tell by how my knuckles turn white From my fist being balled that the windows getting tight For me to get grapple on him standing on the edge of the point of no return at least Until I go to bed Cause when Im out like a light hes having recess in my mind Playing jokes on my cortex rubbing dirt into my eye So that rapid eye movement is jaded by many visions I would say are not mine but he is I could I be tripping No no not at all you aint trippin my guy Im just riding shotgun You should really let me drive I was waiting for the call but you never hit me up hold up wait I'm in control now is time to turn up They never told me I could be my own enemy Man vs Man has afflicted me I can hear him speaking right now He says hes biding his time until let him out Hey remember 4 years ago about this time When nothing was working out and every plan went awry It got real dark and you didn't have the cahones To let me assert my dominance and put some people in their place What you speak about would have me sitting in a cell And that trauma on my daughter that wouldnt have ended well And what about the dream I had I know that was you man That wasnt all me you played a part in it too When youre quiet no one knows but see I can hear it all dog I swear if I ever see you on sight we gonna brawl Put these hands to your temple watch intently as you fall Tell me where you watching from inside a room with padded walls Don't get ahead of yourself with your newfound glow is that suppose to be a threat Cause homie you already know Please save the theatrics if I leave you going too Point taken guess Im stuck so lets take a shot or two They never told me I could be my own enemy Man vs Man has afflicted me I can hear him speaking right now He says hes biding his time until let him out Dancing with the devil in the pale moonlight Its influenced by the struggle manifested in my mind While driven by the passion and the flaws That I hone into weapons they are nothing in its wake stepping stones Though Id like to say thats nothing like me That would be a lie I speak with it everyday often times I do confide Nothing quite knows me and every niche That I have especially hidden ones its almost like a better half We all fight with it but see on the other hand If we indulge it more often would we be a better man Constantly fighting what is either a conscience or a side We dont know about or that we dont want to know about We say its not us but thats self denial and causes more trouble Because its temptation wrapped in premeditated action Not all thoughts translate to good moves but not all fights yield victories Self recognition makes self evaluation easier and self conflicting battles scarce Either we immerse ourselves in ourselves and level up or We continue to go mad from fighting the beast that is self created Which one will you choose Man vs Man