The Weight of Giving Up

I'm on my knees I'm searching I'm at your feet still hurting Screaming I'm not strong enough but fear the weight of giving up Talent speaks loud, money talks Try to knock me down I get up and walk Don't ever wanna think coulda given more I'll take my education I'll knock down doors I'm a man on a mission, with dreams and ambitions But all my decisions, rest on a premonition The chance I been given, the road I've been living On the condition my life's an audition Will the world ever hear what I've got to say? There was a time that I thought I'd never walk away But now I struggle getting through the days There's a poison inside that is oozing and leaking A weight on my mind that is leaving me weeping A light in my heart that is spraying out hope But it's filling my lungs and I'll drown or I'll choke I'm on my knees I'm searching Tell me what I'm fighting for Promise me there's something more I'm at your feet still hurting Screaming I'm not strong enough But fear the weight of giving up So am I gonna win am I gonna lose? Do I stay or do I go should I have to choose? Can I handle the hurt from these scars and these wounds? Can I cope with the chaos and light inside too? Cos I fear that I will never be satisfied And for all my dreams and all the times I've tried I'm locked in a life, like a box I am trapped in Spiralling down like a ship and its captain The world gets madder, reality shatters I climb up the hope in my heart like a ladder My talents and my efforts and my morals and my ethics Are the plot devices in a brand new chapter I'm on my knees I'm searching Tell me what I'm fighting for Promise me there's something more I'm at your feet still hurting Screaming I'm not strong enough But fear the weight of giving up I'm on my knees I'm searching Tell me what I'm fighting for Promise me there's something more I'm at your feet still hurting Screaming I'm not strong enough But fear the weight of giving up When I'm lost and alone I just crawl back in my shell And escape from the world as a victim of myself Tell me what I'm fighting for, I need to know there's something more I'm screaming I'm not strong enough but fear the weight of giving up I'm on my knees I'm searching Tell me what I'm fighting for Promise me there's something more I'm at your feet still hurting Screaming I'm not strong enough But fear the weight of giving up There's a poison inside that is oozing and leaking A weight on my mind that is leaving me weeping A light in my heart that is spraying out hope But it's filling my lungs and I'll drown or I'll choke I'm at your feet still hurting Screaming I'm not strong enough But fear the weight of giving up