Mess of Me

My charade, my charade My grenade, my grenade My charade, my charade My grenade, my grenade Stay on the inside Don't let your secret out Reveal the landslide That's always pouring Down, down like the rain Can you see me drownin'? Drifting away They'll never understand Why I disappear The voices that I hear Calling me into the darkness I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out So sick of holding it down Where no one sees This mess of me It's okay, I'm alright Even though I'm dyin' inside I'm never free Of this mess of me A test for demons Conceal this double life No rhyme or reason For the war behind these Eyes, don't get too close Do you see what I see? Haunting like a ghost I'm never free I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out So sick of holding it down Where no one sees This mess of me It's okay, I'm alright Even though I'm dyin' inside I'm never free Of this mess of me This mess of me No, I'm never free My charade, my grenade I will lie for you I will follow you until the end I'm ashamed, I'm afraid If they knew the truth of my abuse What would they do? What would they do? My charade, my grenade If they knew the truth of my abuse I'll breathe in, I'll breathe out So sick of holding it down Where no one sees This mess of me It's okay, I'm alright Even though I'm dyin' inside I'm never free Oh, of this mess of me I'm never free Of this mess of me