I'm scared to, admit that I, have a secret that is killing me inside

You taught me, to keep my composure, even when it would hurt the most

You don't owe me, not anymore. I'm not that person, that I was before

When will this nightmare be over? I'll miss it, when it is gone

I know that I should be stronger, but I'm just as weak as the rest

You told me that, it would be ok, everything I lacked

You'd push it away, and I know you would

You told me to, never be ashamed, after all these years

I still feel the same, cause I know you would

I can't be afraid, to take a stance, even if I fail

I'll leave it to chance, anxiety, insecurity, take over me like it's the first time all over again