Changes

Changes, Lately I've been feeling some changes Thoughts you could call them so dangerous They seem to come and go but They're mostly to stay here Words like you'll never be good enough You'll never get it done Yeah look at you giving up No one's ever cared of anything you're putting out You give your all and you're getting back minimum Yeah I know yeah I know All the times that I'm low I sit back in this corner and I'm writing a song I've got no one to call never had that really I felt like a burden Didn't reach out to any Minds Heavy so my head's down daily Living through mistakes yeah I've made some maybe Admitting some things that I've lived through That might be an issue Cutting through my skin's like ripping through tissue Changes, lately I've been feeling some changes Things I want to give but I can't 'cause I'm nameless People that I love, want to help them, it pains me I can't 'cause I'm not quite there with this music It pays less than working every hour Every day till I'm faded What a big price to be paid yeah Giving up on normal behaviour Yeah, I remember sitting in my room for a decade Didn't move for second, when I left I thought it would stay behind, but it didn't Now it follows me still every day is a reminder, what I hated about me Why I stayed out of your way What it meant to be lonely And this feeling of wanting some relief And then knowing that this peace Wasn't something in my reach 'Cause this feeling of pressure As time passing is making it hard to breath Are you feeling some changes Lately I've been seeing some changes Everything I feared that I was got to face it Who I used to be and who I am is it the same thing? Always had some questions Never had conversations Always had my faith but never wanted to say it Always ran away in a time I needed to stay there Maybe all I needed was knowing that I could change things Hardest part is waking up thinking I'll never make it Welcome to my mind it's full of darkened places You know it real when I'm putting my feelings on display Cause love is hard for me I'm still learning how to embrace it If this is where I'm supposed to be Why do I feel out of place then If this is what I'm supposed to feel Why do I feel like I'm fading I get that I could never be the perfect me Trying to run my sadness out the door Showed me some things I needed This is who I am and if I try to fight it I'm defeated Struggling with fears you don't know this But I fight a feeling What if change is the reason that I would never make it What if happiness means the music will go away then Will I go back to the person who I can't escape from I may be overthinking it but I'm allowed to say this The Tim you know and love is not the one I live with daily How can I be there for them when I felt lost for ages And how do I hand you the world When both my arms are breaking Yeah, I've been carrying my issues Way too long I'm aching Can I just let them go for second I'm tired of waiting You tell me this is the start of my life To just be patient And everything that led to now Will teach me things you prayed for Yeah every song I write I'm Hoping will lead to some changes It will lead to some changes Is it leading to changes Yeah I feel like I'm changing We're beginning to change things It will lead to some changes Is it leading to changes I've been looking for changes Now I feel like I'm changing