Alone

I been living where the sun don't shine So ain't no wonder why my feet stay cold I feel like I ain't on earth sometimes I get higher when I feel my lows Too many nights that I been locked inside the devil's chamber I wish I knew before the pitfalls that this journey came with A nigga tired, too often quiet I never tell no one else so it eats me up from inside Too many talks with people as shallow as a lagoon So I retreat deeper into myself to heal my wounds It ain't working, I think I need a new regimen Tired of feeling envy towards rappers I know I'm better than Pretentious at my core but I'm humble on the surface Go to hell's flea market my heart will be up for purchase My pace is always urgent and my pen is always fervent But I stay stuck in place cause it ain't good if it ain't perfect I get props like oh you poppin' on the gram nigga That don't mean shit, I'm still living with my grams nigga At my uncle's, and I know that he believes in me Which makes the thought of letting him down eat at me Great value sweatpants Just me and myself telling I to be patient I hide in my paintings, I fly when I daydream I'm low but I can't quit this high that I'm chasing I get props like yo my nigga that's a great tune But he never played your song so he played you All for appearances, we playing characters The world is simply a stage that I've become embarrassed of Ain't no wifey on the horizon so I sleep alone Ain't no warmth left in my body so my pillow's cold I'm the type to still look back when I'm moving forward My regrets leave me in anguish like a figure four I keep asking is the dream worth living for I don't know but I'm running out of time They disregard all the art I design No wonder Van Gogh lost his mind I don't know if I can last I'm too alone out here It's cold out here, I can't face the woes I fear My dreams are in rigor mortis, my hope became an orphan Unwanted by my soul cause optimism is torture I'm way too alone, all I do is cry about it They be asking if I'm fine all I do is lie about it All alone in the globe I can't even find my balance I can't even find my balance nigga I been living where the sun don't shine (don't shine) So ain't no wonder why my feet stay cold (stay cold) I feel like I ain't on earth sometimes (sometimes) I get higher when I feel my lows (my lows) I been living where the sun don't shine (don't shine) So ain't no wonder why my feet stay cold (stay cold) I feel like I ain't on earth sometimes (yeah, yeah) I get higher when I feel my lows (my lows) My lows, my lows