All I Can See

A betrayal of the self hurts the worst It's an empty canteen when you're dying of thirst The desert keeps going How will I know what I'm knowing? When these shackles were locked with my own fists For the children of trauma it never adds up She gave it her best shot It wasn't enough You asked how it is Well the truth is It's fucked My anger distilled into rage Put it on a top shelf From her sons it'd be safe But the day that they drank it I just couldn't take it And I turned and I walked away But there was really nowhere left to go So I wondered for miles Getting drinks with fake smiles Til it was finally my time to go home When I walked through the door Sure I'd been here before There was a pain that had been building awhile None of this really makes sense How will I ever make peace between my heart And what's left of the lies holding on by a thread? So I pulled out my blue pocket knife To keep a promise to slice all this shit from life If it leaves me half dead I sleep until noon again It's expensive and I pay the price Oh, It's expensive and I pay the price And right now, I'm running on empty Only the flame of this anger burns hot And the haunts of old stories Still taunt me with glory Of what I might have been If I joined them again Of what I might have been But I'm not Of what I might have been But I'm not Where is the road I am walking Ever going to lead? If I don't stand my ground and heal these wounds right now My heart will beat me to death where I bleed And what is the song I will sing? Broke my rose colored lenses Set fire to the fences And from here this is all I can see Oh from here this all I can see And right now, I'm running on empty Only the flame of this anger burns hot And the haunts of old stories Still taunt me with glory Of what I might have been If I joined them again Of what I might have been But I'm not Of what I might have been But I'm not And what is the song I will sing? Broke my rose colored lenses Set fire to the fences And from here this is all I can see Oh from here this all I can see Oh from here this all I can see