Livin' in Hell

When it started I was only a teen Living in hell wanted a dream Lying where I fell I didn't know how to deal with this nightmarish thing From the start in life I got a fucked up story happening The cocaine turned me to violence And when that bitch got happy I learnt a technique that would give me silence Until the day it took away in an ambulance That day our love had a loss of ambience Felt like I was a monster born in hell wanted a dream of heavenly things Couldn't believe this shit was happening to me When it started I was only a teen Living in hell had no feelings Lying where I fell on the cold ice of life reminded me of a nightmarish thing From the start in life the devil has been beside me How could I do this to you when you were my main boo When I say I love you to my core Compared to any other man out there I'd give myself to you a thousand times more Night after night I want to show you I love you So I let you beat me to the floor We are two empires at war When it started I was only a teen Living in hell wanted a dream Lying where I fell I didn't know how to deal with life without her love It became a nightmarish thing From the loss of family and all my friends too I knew it happened it movies But how could it happen in real life too It's our love that kept us keep going to war with one another Always blaming each other always screaming at one another Telling me you hate me telling me we are through But I won't let you go keeping you from running away Threatening to call the police I just want to fuck you You just want to fight me our love is a thousand degrees Every day and every week suddenly we are ten years down the street Leaving each other's hearts broken and sore Til we can find peace on a new ocean shore One day I'm sure Babe you were my one true columbian pure Now I'm just living in hell wanted a dream After you left me cast me with your spell I just want to dream now So this is where I fell forced into the roll of Satan's quell I just want to pull this trigger so I can finally fucking dream And escape reality's fantasy When it started I was only a teen Living in hell wanted a dream Lying where I fell I didn't know how to deal with this nightmarish thing From the start in life I got a fucked up story happening Now I am still alive and don't really know who I am I don't even know who I am anymore I... I don't know I'm... So lost in life Fuck this shit