Lamentations (feat. Latifah Alattas)

I hope you hear it I didn't sleep good It's hard to fight when you rdreams realer than life Z's kill em' with stripes These feelings got me missing the past Thought I'd learned my lesson, the test is skipping the class The scriptures at last: do I drop out or study harder? The blood of martyrs Rocking me like I'm Shawn Carter, but I'm blue What color is the struggle? Is it the Sky? Covered in helicopters the only option's to fly But instead I'm stuck in this room Ducking the new God ask when Ima come entrust in the move I'm mumblin' "soon" Grab the phone for something to do Loving the truth? Nah, the truth a puzzle when you Can't put the bigger picture together Ain't no filters in real life When you feel like You tempted to still like the dark So I steal light from y'all, your victory mine The surreal life of course And of course I'm divorced from the sin I once belonged to My position ain't different, the distance is the song too The sentence I don't owe you An explanation is basic I'm a saint and a saint that is easily prone to Have a few bad days with a few bad ways You ask "Wait, the answer ain't in you or Ye?" Two swords late Tell me to use em quick Switch the blade out The same route the fool attempts It's rudiments to fight But I don't feel like it I don't feel righteous I know I'm whiter than snow But I don't feel pious I feel Pilate Trading Saviors for Barrabas Trading places with Seraphims Satan made into terrorists Yeah I lusted, yeah I'm disgusted Yeah I'm disgusting, now I'm redundant Yeah-Yeah I'm done with some of the bad habits I'll kill em' after the feast Attracted to meat, feeling so happy to be Silly rabbits call me charismatic when I ask for the chance to feel him I'm bad with a Jackson's thriller I'm end when the addicts spill Who gon' wash me clean? My rag's filthy as the darkest mark as the niche The heartless eat with the carcass, teach me to harken the truth Lead me I'm often aloof 3D the larger the view Of you, is the marginal truth The argument talking bout' with the bullet Aim it right at the faith If I face it fake it I pull it Amazing grace or the tulip Does he love me, does he love me not? The pot calling the kettle black While pulling the pedals back Removing the devil's tracks I'm a witness limits ask for forgiveness Tempted to end it, tempted to be the menace - I'm Dennis Mimic the rooster crow Medusa told me don't crack when the mirror shows I'm so broken, this hocus pocus, abracadabra This rabbit ain't 8 mile, I can't smile While acting woke I can't skate 'round I can't stay down Them actors saying I can't stay sound And pray face down - they lying to me I'm flying rookie My plane dives, the fire cookin' Mariah looking, carry me God These legs will bury me God Verily verily I'm scared of me God Terror defined, find a synonym to match me in the dictionary Find my picture on the last sheet I'm the last sheep, sleeping on Omega like the last Z I need the shepherd, the staff, the valley The shadow to pass me The second Adam The Alpha And the pasture to grab me I need help O to grace how great a debtor Daily I'm constrained to be! Let thy grace, now, like a vetter Bind my wandering heart to thee Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it Prone to leave the God I love; Here's my heart, O take and seal it Seal it for thy courts above