A Soul on the Run

I spiral insane, popped corkscrew at the neck of the bottle, pop followed By release and not relief, put the pressure back in, it gives purpose to my ends I pursue my schemes aimless, intoxicated and shameless, but each sip or sniff Of elixir a fixture in my motivational rhythm I can't find footing without 'em So focused on the feeling till I'm not feeling the focus, hocus pocus my way Through the day, need a miracle to steer me toward the path that will pay Dividends on what I put in, and not the pain of losing faith once again Mass produced for a mass of none, I build from other's dreams, proud like Look what I done. These dreams mask a truth that I shun My soul is constantly on the run Run run the race is not given to the swift But why do we sprint like we're in fifth I chase the dreams of giants cuz I see my own as small And when I dream too big it feels like a treacherous fall Awaits me, crashing into the sea. And so I choose to set my sights on what I see Instead of cultivating me internally, it's scary to be, vulnerably me Realizing you got but struggling just the same With tryna find an ember in a dying flame You're inspired to achieve and you strive and deliver, never considered Achievement just makes the emptiness clearer Find a mirror and examine that spiritual famine crying feed me manna Don't reject me,what manner of neglect is this? purpose like rays heaven sent You just aren't sitting still enough for nourishment Malnutrition by too much of the wrong thing, and Undervaluing the song that my soul sings A deficiency in vitamin me, nurturing insecurity, an Imbalance of needs Fueled by the voice perceive, and not the voice I left in the sea Drowning in the sorrow of self-made discrepancies, Skip Skip Back to me reverse reverse back to me one card left to play And this might go my way if I focus on uno don't play by the rules you know Last card in my hands a wildcard means I'm destined to win long as I Don't take more by drawing four Every game eventually has to end When will I stop playing myself and let the light shine in