My Apology

This is my apology It's been a while since you hit me, if you listening, please consider maybe calling me I was tripping when I said it was your fault, that I didn't think you would fall for me I was running at the mouth, I ain't tryna block it out, this time it's all on me This is my apology I'm really sorry 'bout the pain that I had dealt to you Started losing focus on the reasons that I fell for you 'Cause no you don't deserve to be recovered from your pedestal Gotta keep my promise that I made that I would shelter you Not tell you what to do, but never fail to come protect Messing up a lot of things, but you still giving me respect How could I step away from something that would last me 'til the end More importantly, supported me, you proved you were my friend Now I'm wondering, did I do it for attention? Did I even comprehend it? Did I do it 'cause I thought that someone else could do it different? Everything I ever needed sitting right before my eyes I would choose to end something perfect, destroy it like a child I'm really sorry I know that saying sorry doesn't change the fact that everything is different and will never be the same But I had to speak about it, knew I had to apologize You were all I ever needed, I'm no better than other guys Claim they different from the rest, and promise to never hurt you Then they try to sympathize and tell you they don't deserve you Never understood those guys, why do they lie through their teeth But now I see that I fell victim, they're no different than me You could've chosen anybody, said that I was the one And I really took that for granted, now I know I was wrong Started taking advantage, didn't know it would follow me I regret my past mistakes, listen to my apology This is my apology It's been a while since you hit me, if you listening, please consider maybe calling me I was tripping when I said it was your fault, that I didn't think you would fall for me I was running at the mouth, I ain't tryna block it out, this time it's all on me This is my apology I'm real sorry for acting flirty, then choosing to do you dirty, and failing to be the person who supports you I claimed that I was trying really hard, I can't believe I played that card, I shoulda proved to you that I really adore you I chose to take advantage of your heart, I couldn't see it from the start, but the decisions I was making started following Wish that I could travel back in time, and fix the mess I would design, because I can't I'ma leave you with my apology