Back then I got this uncertain feeling

About time happiness from our lives started leaving

Couldn't help but watch it go as I kept on seeking

Soon as I noticed the dark times started feeding

I was so traumatized I could see myself hanging from the ceiling

I was stuck inside the darkness with my own fucking demons

Felt like I was paralyzed I bursted out screaming

Wondering if this is the end of me or is it just a new beginning

Wouldn't give a fuck because both of them have the same meaning

Filled myself with positivity I could see the sunray's reaching

It was about time to pass on the legacy to my offspring, I started preaching

Until I found out that my son was too busy daydreamin'

It started all here

05 was the day when I lost it all in a year

That day onwards I've been living life in fear

From the lack of having brother and the passing of my peers

Last week I had a thought

I'm 19 years

That's old enough to start imagining about my career

Or will I go, coz I don't see myself getting anywhere

But know that there's more to life than smoking weed and drinking many beers

Or popping pills

Know I'm all sober right now from the top to the bottom of my heels

What you hearing right now is nothing but some pure skills

Could you feel?

Intensity of the beat is so unreal

All this bass and sound of drums, God they just give me chills

All these bars that I spit is so damn real

Could you feel?

Hahahaha

That's my man preachin'

Your mouth can spit venom

Or it could mend a broken soul

Sleeping with a pen and dreaming like I'm living on tour

I feel like life's a dream

And I can dream lucid

All this daydreamin' got me making some music

Searching for some jobs

I'm just tryna get paid

Living with all these odds

My dreams are what I trade

I'm 19 now

I could see the time fade

30m's before my 20's

Only wish if I could make

In the middle of the night

I'm so damn awake

Only lord knows

How much my mind and body aches

They've been feeling all the pain

But a smile that they fake

I could see that there's nothing that could break

My parents and this petty world's ablaze

And this is just a phase

There's no story without struggle

See my point?

Now my dreams are what I chase

Day and night I've been contemplating verses, with a heart full of rage

But reality

It ain't possible to face

Anyway, everything has turned out to be so grey

and I've did things that I couldn't unwind

Beyond these walls of thoughts

My life is defined

Your mouth can spit venom

Or it could mend a broken soul

Sleeping with a pen and dreaming like I'm living on tour

I feel like life's a dream

And I can dream lucid

All this daydreamin' got me making some music