Deliverance for the Damned

A world of color returns Feeling of warmth renewed Senses return to what they once were prior to Joining the dead here in this place Start to remember something other than pain Euphoria calls Go down to ascend Medicated bliss Rapture is achieved And just maybe the answer is not To wait for help but go and find it This introduction to madness seems to have cured And filled the hollow space within me I've been looking for a way to Remember who I once was Mask the pain and overflow Take the reins by giving in Self-inflicted liberty Tastes so sweet, like liquid mirth Hold on tight or lose control And spiral out and slip away Drunken, drugged up, splendid ecstasy I'm alive For the first time in so long Invincible, immaculate and free from everything That dragged me down like tons of brick A sensational new emotion to abuse And just maybe the truth of it all Is I chose to feel this pain within In mania, depressed me seems a fool As I fill this hollow space within me I've been looking for a way to Remember who I once was Mask the pain and overflow Take the reins by giving in Self-inflicted liberty Tastes so sweet, like liquid mirth Hold on tight or lose control And spiral out and slip away Panicked, terror-stricken ecstasy Once again lose what's me The grip on my sanity is loosened As the pain flows freely from my lips And through this body until I am free Consciousness is pulled back, now see the body from afar as it stumbles Making the same mistake again on repeat, each time feeling better yet worse With a sick satisfaction I drown myself in the poison that numbs yet exacerbates Each second that passes brings closer the nauseated comfort that I crave Time melts Behind me is loss, before is the same I shake, I quiver, I fall Behind me is loss, before is the same I bow, I bend, I break I am now nothing Just a pile of firing nerves Whose synapses flare, and only crave more There's no solace in this fleeting break This euphoric reprieve No deliverance for the damned I've been looking I've been looking for a way to Remember who I once was Mask the pain and overflow Take the reins by giving in Self-inflicted liberty Tastes so sweet, like liquid mirth Hold on tight or lose control And spiral out and slip away