Sunshine

I walk the streets of my childhood mumbling

Stumbling, dirt upon my shirt, stomach rumbling

Don't toss me a glance or look at me askance - God damn

I'm paying all my hatred in advance

Patently absurd, I guess nobody's perfect. Worthless

Struggling to find a sense of purpose

Caught up in the smog, drifting like a thick cloud

Of fog. Kicking like a one-legged dog

I stroll past the scenic divide and backtrack

"Damn, why the situation go down like that?"

Well, I used to try to think and get it all down with ink

But confusion floods my brain and I remain on the brink

I remember when life was delectable

Waxing intellectual, growing my own vegetables

Now the landscape of my mind state's gritty

Pity - can't believe I came back to the city

It's the return

It's my life, my life, my life

In the sunshine

Back track, damn, why the situation go down like that

It's the return

It's my life, my life, my life

In the sunshine

Back track, damn, why the situation go down like that

My fall from grace was amazing

Went from living right to spending daytime in a basement. Damn

You could chalk it up to a form of self-abasement

Take a walk downtown and contemplate my displacement

Beyond the point of a youthful affectation

Hazy days strung into a permanent vacation

Weary on my feet, I go and take a seat

By the fountain. Somebody get me off this magic mountain

Landlady acts suspicious, skittish, nervous

Sometimes I think she fucks with me on purpose

I bet she found my conduct disgraceful, hateful

Wasteful, traumatically unstable for the faithful

I laid framework for a plan and then I foiled it, spoiled it

Flushed my whole existence down the toilet

I reminisce upon my legacy repugnant

Disgusted, watched it all just crumble into nothing