Insecurities

Why am I so insecure about myself, about my body, about my health? And please, don't even get me started on my acne My worries just come at me My insecurities wanna attack me I'm guessing they don't want me being any type of happy Run away from all my flaws, but then they always seem to catch me They have me, they fucking grab me And throw me into a mindset of misery, I'm blinded Of all the beauty that I'll never see in myself I try to hide it, then I'm reminded That I'll never be okay with all these thoughts in my head And I'm trying really hard to get this off of my chest When it comes to me, I always have to settle for less And I ain't never gonna fit in with the mo'fucking rest I'm a mess and I'm really stressin', for what? When I look into the mirror, my mind tells me that I ain't make the cut And that I'm never enough Like, why my demons gotta make this shit tough? I can't toughen up, and the love, I just fuck it up And I'm done 'cause I've had enough And I suck and I'm out of luck And I'm hugging my pillow 'til I cry out all of my reasons See a new flaw every day, they wanna change like the seasons You will never get to see the pain through all of my lesions Because I've never had the help to pick up all of my pieces Why is it every time I see myself my confidence decreases? I wanna be done breathing, I'm heated, I'm fucking leaving, damn, uh (yeah) My insecurities, they always seem to worry me My insecurities, they always seem to bury me My insecurities, they always seem to worry me They always take control of me and they just take my soul from me My insecurities, they always seem to worry me My insecurities, they always seem to bury me My insecurities, they always take control of me They always take control of me, they hurtin' me they holdin' me I think my arms too skinny and I should really work out And then I cruise the city and I don't wanna go out 'Cause all the girls too pretty and I can't even show out I reroute to the woods where people aren't so loud It's empty, never a crowd and I just stare at the clouds And lay down until the sun drowns into the ground I hear the sound of the voices in my head Telling me to go to bed, there isn't much for you ahead, damn Why am I so insecure? I'm always feeling like nobody ever puts me first I feel like it's a curse, my feelings are the worst It really fucking hurts, just put me in a hearse I wish that people understood the way I live, it doesn't work like that Even when I fight back and never win in despite I lack The strength because I'm light like that My mind attacks and eats my soul with one bite, damn