Open the curtains
Singing birds tell me, "Tear the buildings down"
You felt blessed to receive their pleasant sound
Things that break make you cringe inside yourself
There's a child counting stars in their time-out of their day
In the corners of their frame, they're encased
In the losing of a grain of themselves
Pushed against the ebb and flow
Wave good-bye and watch it go
Well, show me the honest, proper way
To disarm predatory gaze
Sucking dry, never satiated
You've been misused, been rewired
You're short-circuiting now
Just remember when you'd call me to come
Take a deep breath and then jump
So fragile are bodies
So concave
Work in self-destructive ways
You shot from the hip and missed
Detaching from all of this
In physical pictures you remain
Spiral 'round yourself in figure-eight
I recoil at every new beginning
I searched for a way out
Don't we all?
Existentialist recall
Turn in all, all dichotomies and truths that I gave
I felt wrong in many ways
Didn't heal
It just got harder everyday to be still
To be passing through the throes
In a daze
Feeling heavy
Feeling cold in my skin
In my hand-me-downs
Wearing everything thin
And the pills that you gave didn't do anything
I just slept for years on end, fuck!
Well, so if I call should I beg?
'Cause I'm desperate here
A couple steps from the edge
I can't seem to burn bright enough
I'm cold and I'm left alone
We're all alone
Grab a hold
I know I said to not
What the fuck do I know?
I had a chance to construct something beautiful and I choked
I choked
I choked
I choked
