Abandoned

I been laying low tryna heal from the damage Late nights spending time by myself my eyes would dampen She took me away from the love that I was handed I used to call you baby yeah but now I feel abandoned I been laying low tryna heal from the damage Late nights spending time by myself my eyes would dampen She took me away from the love that I was handed I used to call you baby yeah but now I feel abandoned Originally we promised we won't talk about our ex But I'm addicted to you like RX Sometimes I wear sunglasses to hide me from crying when the sun passes Feeling small because your love was massive I wish I could put my feelings for you in a casket Maybe someday I could shoot my shot again and this time I won't miss the basket For now don't ask me how I'm doing cuz my heart is what's crackin Reminiscing cracking jokes still laughin bout it I was pounding on my chest feelings spilling out like a fountain Always thought you'd be the one to help me up when I would climb a mountain You became part of my OCD I just hope you miss me if you ever listen to my old CDs You made everyday like summer now it's cold for me Been thinking we would last even when I'm an older me I don't know what I did but I guess you still mad at the older me I been laying low tryna heal from the damage Late nights spending time by myself my eyes would dampen She took me away from the love that I was handed I used to call you baby yeah but now I feel abandoned I been laying low tryna heal from the damage Late nights spending time by myself my eyes would dampen She took me away from the love that I was handed I used to call you baby yeah but now I feel abandoned It don't make sense why I can't be there comforting you To me your love is black and white I miss the colorful you Look at my call log it's empty heavy weight on my shoulder I feel envy Heard you letting someone love you why not let me I'm done trying now cuz soon enough you gonna wish you kept me Got some bottled scripts ahead and imo use it I know you don't like when I take drugs but I already blew it We both knew something bad would happen but it ain't bad for you I walked into your battles got a battle bruise You say we winning if we not together but I know I'm bout to lose At least hangin out would be something I'm down to do Being brutally honest I don't know how I messed up I can't even lift my head up I might need a double dose and raise my meds up Remember chillin on the couch at your crib with our legs up Being brutally honest I don't know how I messed up I can't even lift my head up I might need a double dose and raise my meds up Remember chillin on the couch at your crib with our legs up I been laying low tryna heal from the damage Late nights spending time by myself my eyes would dampen She took me away from the love that I was handed I used to call you baby yeah but now I feel abandoned I been laying low tryna heal from the damage Late nights spending time by myself my eyes would dampen She took me away from the love that I was handed I used to call you baby yeah but now I feel abandoned