Ruined My Life

I miss the family I used to have I feel like everything's so different now Sitting by the fire as we'd watch the flames burn out I miss the days I wasn't afraid Now I will always have my guard up, hands on my face I learned to cope with the pain I know that people think I'm trying to get attention But in reality I'm trying to send a message I know there's kids out there that are going through the same thing And if you're one of them, my hope to help you're suffering Just know it will get better and these feelings do not stay the same, no They don't stay the same I don't wanna make you feel bad But you kinda ruined my life You hurt me and ruined my life And I don't wanna make you feel bad But you kinda ruined my life You hurt me and ruined my life You hurt me and ruined my life, oh You hurt me and ruined my life (Oh, no) (Oh, no) I lost a couple friends on my way up I took a couple L's, but that's just normal talk I popped a couple pills, but they don't do much And now I take pills back in the morning with some mother's stuff But why did I get into this? I feel like this is all a dream But when I wake up, look around this isn't even make believe So I sit in the corner thinking back to all the memories I grew up with these fake beliefs 'bout time I find a remedy I don't wanna make you feel bad (make you feel bad) But you kinda ruined my life (you kinda ruined my life) You hurt me and ruined my life And I don't wanna make you feel bad (make you feel bad) But you kinda ruined my life You hurt me and ruined my life You hurt me and ruined my life, yeah, oh You hurt me, oh, you hurt me You hurt me and ruined my life You hurt me and ruined my life