I WANNA DIE BUT I CAN'T (CUZ I GOTTA KEEP LIVING)

Everybody's moving on Growing in their own way No matter where I put myself I'm always in the same place Breathing down my own neck Taking up too much space Now I'm trying to cry in the bathroom And figure out if I ever cared anyways I wanna die but I can't Cuz I gotta keep living I wanna die but I can't Cuz I gotta keep living Wake up in another day Have some coffee with my stupor Add up all the time I waste Telling myself I am a loser Pick apart my peaking past Stress about the future Now it's me in the mirror in the bathroom Wondering if I ever knew her I wanna die but I can't Cuz I gotta keep living I wanna die but I can't Cuz I gotta keep living Oh babe you gotta figure this out You got another forty years at least to live with yourself And everything looks pretty on paper But you can't write down your life (I wanna die but I can't) Oh babe point to the place that it hurts When all the walls close in around you feel it only gets worse But everything gets better just later So let's give this one more try I wanna die but I can't Cuz I gotta keep living I wanna die but I can't Cuz I gotta keep living Everybody's moving on I'm still acting like I'm twenty Every decision I make is based on fun Well Alyse are you even having any?