So I Lie

Peel me apart, all my layers All of my fears, all my pride They say, "Laugh now, and cry later" I can't ignore how I feel inside Laugh and the world will laugh too Cry and the world laughs at you, girl So I lie to myself Let's be real, I'm afraid of how I feel So I lie to my friends But they can tell Just a shell of who I am when I lie Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie Yeah, yeah, yeah Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie I can barely breathe treading water Smile on my face while I'm turning blue Nobody cares, just work harder I do what I can to avoid the truth Laugh and the world will laugh too Cry and the world laughs at you, girl So I lie to myself Let's be real, I'm afraid of how I feel So I lie to the world They can see, they can see right through me when I lie Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie Yeah, yeah, yeah Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie 'Til the voided faults and doubts mutate to poison And loaded thoughts explode at ones I love I wanna face myself, but I keep running To shifty patterns I become when I lie So I lie to myself Let's be real, just afraid of how I feel So I lie to my friends But you can tell Just a shell of who I am when I lie To the world They can see, they can see right through me when I lie Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie Yeah, yeah, yeah Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie I'm not complaining, I'm just chilling from not dealing with myself That's the villain in my soul Plus I hate to ask for help I'm not complaining, I'm just chilling from not dealing with myself That's the villain in my soul Plus I hate to ask for help Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie Yeah, yeah, yeah Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie