Rain pouring down
My head pounds from the sound
I'm stuck to the bed
With brain zaps in my head
I can't fall asleep
I cannot stay awake
I cry 'til I weep
I shiver and I shake
I think of you
I think of you
Think of you
It's all that I can do
And Lord knows I've tried
I'm trying hard to change
I wish I knew why
I always stay the same
This is not who I want to be
This is not who I want to be
I am slowly killing me
Oh, this is not who I want to be
I wish I was scared of poison pills and pain
I wish I was scared of damage to my brain
But finally I see, I should be scared of me
How'd I come to be my own worst enemy?
This is not who I want to be
This is not who I want to be
I am slowly killing me
No, this is not who I want to be
