Alibi

I've been thinking 'bout a bed of roses every time I drift into sleep I've been playing roulette with the unspoken, tryna piece whatever it means I find it hard to recall the moment you left and it felt like the world Pressed down on my shoulders, you'd think I would learn To clear up my chest; I burden myself I don't know if I can afford to lose what we already have going So I'm stifled by my choice to reside in my own thoughts If I could tell you how long I've felt this connection then maybe you'd see That gravity's pulling you closer to me And maybe after all this time it is finally meant to be Take control, cuz heaven knows I won't Let me know if there's any hope That I'm not crazy for keeping you in the back of my mind That holding on was worth it and it's Just a matter of time That the stars align and it all works out fine If I threw you a line would you take it? A sign, would you just drive by? When I close my eyes it all makes sense I'm my own alibi Maybe you've already noticed how you draw me in when you speak And how I start to lose my focus while I brush my heart off my sleeve You make me weak Take control, cuz heaven knows I won't Let me know if there's any hope That I'm not crazy for keeping you in the back of my mind That holding on was worth it and it's Just a matter of time That the stars align and it all works out fine If I threw you a line would you take it? A sign, would you just drive by? When I close my eyes it all makes sense I'm my own alibi Saying bye is always tough Because I know I'll miss you more But still I hide behind my bluff I think I've had enough But I still can't get myself to go with my gut So I write in the name of love