I Say Things

I meant what I told you

Why didn't you call?

I waited till midnight

Weighed down by it all

And maybe tomorrow

I'll be what you want

Lately I've been trying to find the words

But every time I think it's time, it hurts

I don't know me

I say things I don't mean

Just hoping you'll like me

I pretend to like things

I keep showing up

To parties and dancing

Right around my feelings

And I hate that I do it

I keep showing up

Been saying I'm leaving

All afternoon

But I'm always playing

By everyone's rules

And maybe tomorrow

I'll be someone new

Lately I've been trying to find the words

But every time I think it's time it, hurts

But I'm trying

I say things I don't mean

Just hoping you'll like me

I pretend to like things

I keep showing up

To parties and dancing

Right around my feelings

And I hate that I do it

I keep showing up

I keep showing up

I keep showing up

I keep showing up

I say things I don't mean

Just hoping you'll like me

I pretend to like things

I keep showing up

To parties and dancing

Right around my feelings

I hate that I do it

But I keep showing up

I keep showing up