I Am Not. Okay

I walked alone to the telephone Now I'm overanalyzing this familiar dial tone Wondering if I should change myself today Or if I should stay out of everybody's way And it's just crazy how much I try to change me Because when you're bound by expectations, how can you be set free? Maybe I'm addicted to the feeling of being liked by everyone And I know that I chose to mirror those around me But at the end of the day I'm not anyone And I'm not insane But I am not impressed Maybe I should rest Maybe I should admit that I am not. Okay I'm isolated at this party Trying to guess what they're all thinking of I have a tendency to assume That deep inside their hearts, is a burning, raging hatred for my gut And it's just crazy how much I try to change me Because when you're bound by expectations, how can you be set free? Maybe I'm addicted to the feeling of being liked by everyone And I know that I chose to mirror those around me But at the end of the day I'm not anyone And I'm not insane But I am not impressed Maybe I should rest Maybe I should admit that I am not. Okay And all I crave is validation Wish that I could just be sober Why do I have to be hated? Wish this nightmare could be over Wish you knew me before you judged me Wish that we could just be friends But instead it's all discarded Before we even had a chance And I try to pretend it isn't killing me slowly... Maybe I'm addicted to the feeling of being liked by everyone And I know that I chose to mirror those around me But at the end of the day I'm not anyone And I'm not insane But I am not impressed Maybe I should rest Maybe I should admit that I am not. Okay