Odysseus

Bally on, gloves on

I feel sick, my heads hurting

Chip on my shoulder

Gotta show them that I been working

An old friend told me

'Bro i'm glad you got your life together'

Tryna find the words to say

I never found my real purpose

But let's remember that I'm a real person

I get down

And never talk about it when I feel nervous

Fake street dudes will say I never lived a gangster life

What? cus this ain't something that I glamourise?

I keep it low

And never open up about the fucking roads

I lost close friends who should've lived

That's a fucking joke

The world hurt me I say whatever in my raps

I found a close friend dead

So can you blame me if I'm tapped?

My mind been feeling trapped

So forgive me when I'm back

If she don't love me now

I bet she loves me with a plaque

Impossible to love

Cus all I bring is loads of baggage

When things are going well

It's really weird I start to panic

Like

Do you get nervous when you think about me?

Or do you just never even think about me?

You see if everybody's dying

How am I suppose to cope

If I'm just waking up and crying?

I fall asleep drowning

Just hoping I don't wake up

Shit

This music tings my make up

I see my friends in the stars

I used to cry in the dark

Now I dm with the stars

I'm ashamed of my past

There's a hole in my heart

I can't talk to my friends

But I can raise them a glass

Yeah

But there's events that I can't accept

With some horny girls that I can't neglect

You see if everybody love me

I should prolly soak it in

Cus I'm aware that it won't last forever

You see I could've gone to country

But I'm choosing memory lane

Cuh that's the only place we're last together

I tried to kill myself this shits deep

I feel to try again

But I just know my fans would miss me

A friend just told me that I saved him

And I broke down into tears

He's prolly thinking that I'm famous

Prolly thinking I ain't broken

This time I'll really fall back

I had half hearted friends

That never even gave a thought back

My life been in a spiral

My friends are turning spiteful

Making up some lies

In the hopes of going viral

But

See I can't take a fucking joke

Cuh it ain't a fucking joke

You disguise it like it's funny

Til' the second I explode

I see all the fucking shade

And it hurts me really deep

Cuh I love him like a brother

Man I love him more than me

But I seen what he's about

So me and him can never speak

I'd rather have no friends

If that's the thing that gives me peace

I won't blame it on the drugs

But he's been different since the weed

I ain't rolling with the same man

You seen in For The Streets

I gave everything to people

And people say me selfish

My friends feel depressed

It's only me that's really helping

I change it to a smile

But when it's me that's feeling helpless

I never see a person

I had girls break my heart

And i just pray to god they're hurting

Guys that tried to kill me

And I pray to God they're murdered

Forgive me when I'm growing

Be patient cuh I'm learning

I'm going to the top and not returning

King