Its been a years and I'm still Hurting

Think about you every single morning

Yeah I lost my biggest love but I know that you're watching them from up above

They tell me time will come and take this pain

but time is only keeping you away

I can't wait til I see your face

When I go up into that holy place

No more playing and no more tears

Until then I'll be waiting right here for you God had a whole year with you

And I'm jealous I wish I could tell him but last time we spoke it was me just yelling

Losing my mind and my spirit lately

It's hard to look in the mirror lately

I knew this day was just bound to break me

Wondering why God didn't take me

I just thought this was a package deal

Didn't think you could leave me for real

I thought you were so invincible love so dependable life without you is so miserable But

When you're looking down

I hope I bring you a smile

I know I'm making you proud

Its hard to keep going knowing there's so many things that I'm missing right now

All of your love and attention

All of the hugs and kisses

Yeah and yelling at God feels like sinning but at least he knows my intentions

I cried on your birthday

I'm still not used to this

No I'm still not used to this

Don't think ill ever get used to it

Yeah I cried on you birthday

I'm still not used to this

Nah I'm still not used to this

I'm still not I'm still not

God I'm needing the best you

Nah I don't mean to test you

But I've been praying and screaming at all of my demons I'm need a rescue

I'm needing you to see her face

Cause only you can come and make a way

But I've been begging and hurting don't know if it's worth it

I'm losing the words to pray

But when you're looking down

I hope I bring you a smile

I know I'm making you proud

Its hard to keep going knowing there's So many things that I'm missing right now

All of your love and attention

All of the hugs and kisses

Yeah and yelling at God feels like sinning but at least he knows my intentions

Yeah I cried on your birthday

I'm still not used to this

Nah I'm still not used to this

Don't think ill ever get used to it

Yeah I cried on you birthday

I'm still not used to this

Nah I'm still not used to this

Don't think I'll ever get used to it,

Life without you got me losing motive

Can't deny it partly losing focus

Whole world around me I still feel hopeless

Yelling for help if you didn't notice

Cause I'm tired of hurting and losing

Can't fake the pain and the bruising

Before I do something stupid

I'll save the my momma the pain and the tears and I'll put all my hurt into music

Yeah I cried on your birthday

I'm still not used to this

Nah I'm still not used to this

Don't think ill ever get used to it

Yeah I cried on you birthday

I'm still not used to this

Nah I'm still not used to this

Don't think ill ever get used to it

Te amo y feliz cumpleaños mami