Told myself to go easy on myself

Fuck everybody don't need no one but myself

Promise I won't ever exchange my pussy for some help

I'm really that bitch and its fuck how **** feel

Betting on myself cause I know I'm gon win

Put the baddest bitch next to me she ain't no ten

Done been through hella shit and I would do it all again

Heart on ice cause I learned **** ain't my friend

I'm so hurt, I'm so broken, heart was open, loss for words you had me choking, shit was Deep when you was stroking

Love was the worst fucking thing that a **** could take from me

Always kept it real even when **** was fake with me

I bend don't break

Make a hating bitch congratulate

I spend what you cant, I'm really is what you ain't

I really rap about my life, you just do it for the hype

You a capping ass ****, you just do it for the likes

Pull up to any hood for these bitches that wanna fight

Skull drag a bitch then take her money for my time

Thought you fucked my ****, but if you fucked him he ain't mine

It's a lot of **** on me but I ain't really got the time

Hoe you slime, told you it was yours, but you know this pussy mine

Do you how you like, this pussy get **** hype

I'm a vibe, I'm the driver I don't ride no more, can't let shit slide no more

Treat my **** all the same, I ain't no hiding no hoe

I get mine then I go

Took you high, Taught you how to be fly

Never told you a lie, let you use me as yo alibi

If I could ask you one question, I would ask you **** why?

Shut the fuck up, saying that you love me

When I needed you the most you put a bum bitch before me

I was carrying yo seed, how dare you fucking ignore me?

Cant even Be that mad, you wasn't raised like that

You barely had a daddy and yo mama wasn't shit

You was raised on survival, I saw something I could fix

Addicted to getting lit, I'm gon die tryna get rich

Protecting my feelings, cant be blinded by the dick

Afraid to commit, scared of losing it all

Guarding my heart, behind a thick ass wall

That's it, that's all.

Even through the hurt, I still allow myself to be vulnerable enough to love again

I had a boy but I needed a man

He was in the streets making money with no five year plan

Two abortions cause my kids deserve to be raised by a man

And I take full responsibility, I'm aware of my actions

I'm not proud of my choices, I have nightmares of their voices

Of their crys, of their mama whys, me singing lullaby's

And every time he calls me he says " bitch you killed my babies"

His disrespect and inconsistencies drove me fucking crazy

And I've made peace with the fact that I will never meet my babies

And I will murder a bitch if she brings it up again

That was my decision, and I dealt with it within

Cause how you gon win when you ain't right within

And I don't like to talk about it so I had to be my own best friend

The best thing I ever did was pick up this pen

My heart is ready for the next chapter

My heart is heavy but I cover it with laughter

My heart is ready to be loved correctly,

My heart has been used, lied to and is covered with scars

She don't easily trust and that's why I gotta Guard it