What Next?

Lifes depressing, but I try to keep it funny Sip the caffeine like its honey I don't know what's next Living lovely But I feel like it's kept from from me There's no relaxation no vacations in the life that bears no fruit for money Wanting, perfection out of incomplete and rubbish subjects I've been learning from my burdens I don't know what's next Feeling hurting But I feel like there's something better something worth it When the hurt hits when the tables turn-in to confusion What it like to know the truth? What's it like to love a few? Is the secret something new? Is it something I don't choose? Does the fire have a fuse or is the wick also confused? I don't know what's next, I need someone else's view Help me out of this perpetual misuse My faith in a noose What's the lie and what's the truth? What's the lie and what the truth? Tryna write my story Don't know where to go I'm going Searching for the truth but I don't really wanna know it Tried to keep it going I can't do this on my own yet Pray to God again cause I don't know what's gonna happen next What's gonna happen next? I don't know but I'm waiting for it Cause I'm in the present I can't regift it I can't ignore it I step right off the ledge and Im gonna fall if I'm not soaring I should just leap but there's questions that I'm busy imploring What happens Next? I end the chapter and turned the page I'm tryna write my own ending but end up in dismay There's too much confusion and every way seems to be an illusion And for every demon I kill there comes in a new sin what a nuisance Put my faith in the noose And I'm still wondering Does the time I waste add up or does it dissipate What's my fate? What type sacrifice will it take? Will it burn? will it soothe? What's the lie and what's the truth? What's the lie and what's the truth? Tryna write my story Don't know where to go I'm going Searching for the truth but I don't really wanna know it Tried to keep it going I can't do this on my own yet Pray to God again cause I don't know what's gonna happen next