Leaning

They say it's strange that I'm still leaning That I need to change, stand on two feet and leave But my momma says I'm alright "So I guess I'm fine," I say as it echoes through my mind All the shit I've done wrong Like that one time I told Jess I couldn't hang Cause I wanted to see that boy again And I probably shouldn't be so selfish at night But momma says I've gotta do things for myself sometimes I work two jobs, and thank god I don't pay rent Cause all my money goes to student loans and the goddamn government Cause they said we'd be alright So we just get drunk and make believe our lives don't suck And laugh it all away Am I wasting time? thought I'd be in Nashville by now It's a surprise, but I've got good things going on this side of town So I'll stick around And momma says things will work out sometime Cause my innocence is gone Adulthood sets in My ambition is lost And that feeds the fear within Momma told me I was special It turns out I'm just alright I've been living with that pressure for my whole life They told us we were special Gave us participation awards Building up the pressure But what are we working towards Cause our innocence is gone Adulthood has set in We're all so fucking lost And I don't know where to begin And they say it's strange That I'm still leaning But I'm still leaning