I Hope

I'm alone But I'm still never really on my own I don't think I'll ever feel whole Because I've lost that control I try my best, give everything my all But even then I'm always falling short I keep an open mind just to get hurt So close to an answer but it's gone 'Cause even after all this time I'm hurting I feel like this but maybe I deserve it I don't know why you stay 'cause I'm not worth it You're just everything and I hope I can be enough I'm fine It's easier to say that than see what's happening inside my mind all the time Just some days it's hard to disguise I try my best but I don't know what for 'Cause every time I try I don't get far I'm numb but my emotions they hit hard Holding onto part of me that's gone 'Cause even after countless nights of crying I pull myself together to survive this I know you want me to just let you in I'm trying 'Cause you deserve the world I just hope I can be enough Still nothing matters when I'm dying Now I just feel so cold and I can't stand it But still I'm here fighting for nothing Just want you to be happy and I hope I can be enough for you For you I just hope I'm enough