Bedridden

When we met you were sunburnt all the time And I was painted in a set of colors that just couldn't be mine I'm bedridden, so good riddance Learning to walk again, leaning on all my friends Because I'm tired of living like a martyr In the hope that someone notices It's a straight shot from what I'm not To the life that you're building I hope it's fulfilling to spit-shine What you thought you'd find along the way So keep pace with the aftertaste And the way you always compare yourself to other people It killed me because everyone's burdens are different And I'm still too young to be this undone By what I didn't do when I still knew you And I can't feel the seasons changing But I can sense your feelings fading When we met you were anxious all the time It kills me because I always thought I'd be different