Am I in love, or trying not to be alone

Should I still trust, all these feelings that I show

Is it just lust? Things I'm trying to let go

It is these feelings I don't want, keep me up and in their hold

I'm living so unsure like am I stuck like this for good

Or is it for the good that I am stuck? But if I could get out I would

Am I just misunderstood and should I show under the hood

Show the way in which I lure, I need a victim I deem pure

Guess I hurt the things closest to me cause they're easy to reach

And I don't stop until I'm sure that I am making them bleed

Till I make them all see that the world be as evil as think

Get them to believe that there is no other way

Spending lives trapped so they begin to waste away

It's not a choice that I make but when I look at my wake

You have to agree I take their emotions and pray

Don't get me wrong I don't wake in the day

And be like "hey imma go ruin the way, the way that she thinks, the way that she lives"

Destroying her soul, the way that she is, that is not my process

I just take her for granted and leave her pieces dismantled

She's broken beaten and baffled, there's no retreating this battle

There's only bleeding and fragile, there is no Eve with this Apple

I'm adamant I hear the judge beating his gavel

Save yourself and run from me, save yourself while you're still free

Save yourself and run from me, save yourself

Cause I will undoubtedly ruin everything you've ever seen, ever dreamed of a love lasting so happily

That'd be the perfect way of describing me

Bullets ninety degrees burning what's there beside of me

We're always told the line that two wrongs don't make a right

Well three wrongs right in a night cannot be an oversight

"You have to believe me, I didn't mean it" even if I did wouldn't change how I'm feeling

I should be leaving, hurting me couldn't even give me a reason

The news was intoxicating it's amazing ain't it

It was like a play script cause scenes were changing

A peaceful nature turned sea of anger

You blamed the substance, you blame the context

It isn't complex, you lacked the respect

Should I just reject and hit the eject?

Should I just leave it? Keep it a secret? Distrust I'm feeding

Can't say I was taken aback, should've been more hurt I can promise you that

I mean, I guess I was mad but I think there were way worse ways to react

It started to worry me like "Am I really that numb I cannot be"

Missing some feelings I felt entirely

Will I ever feel again? Only time will see

Save yourself and run from me, save yourself while you're still free

Save yourself and run from me, save yourself

Cause I will undoubtedly ruin everything you've ever seen, ever dreamed of a love lasting so happily

That'd be the perfect way of describing me

Bullets ninety degrees burning what's there beside of me

Stuck between a rock and a hard place

In between hard love and heartbreak

It seems that I'm losing these mind games

That's okay I don't mind games

An oversight? Well I'm over sight so take my eyes and stop them crying

I just need to be alone, tired of these feelings that I need to show

I'm in love with a piece of hope, can I please let go, I don't think I could

I'm deep in love and I'm drowning it, I've reached my slump I'm not proud I'm in it

Spend my days with my fist clenched till I hit my bed, please I just need a minute

I go to make them an ultimatum just jokes I've changed and my broken hatred's what's brought that wave in

I've changed my phases through a change of faces but not replacing

Sorrow seeps stealing serenity

Take all the things that I've been cherishing

I struggle to find a better me

So save yourself that seems to be the remedy