Chemicals

I couldn't be what you wanted But you weren't there when I promised That I'd never leave someone honest But I did it, I did it, I did it again I hate the mistakes that I'm making Been sick to my stomach all day, yeah And nobody knows that I'm faking But I did it, I did it, I did it again And it's four in the morning And I'm wide awake again Cause we're not talking Don't wanna know how this one ends The chemicals in my head are starting to mess up again The fabric of my thoughts unravelling just like I said But you wouldn't believe it If I told you I'm different And this one is gonna hurt I've given myself a new limit If this ain't the one then I'm finished Cause getting out is harder than being in it And if I do it, then I'll do it, I'll do it again And it's four in the morning I'm thinking of needing some help Cause you're not talking And I'm over hating here myself The chemicals in my head are starting to mess up again The fabric of my thoughts unravelling just like I said But you wouldn't believe it If I told you I'm different And this one is gonna hurt Yeah this one is gonna hurt And I swear it's not you It's always me I swear it's not you It's always me Yeah I swear it's not you It's always me I swear it's not you It's always me The chemicals in my head are starting to mess up again The fabric of my thoughts unravelling just like I said But you wouldn't believe it If I told you I'm different And this one Yeah this one This one is gonna hurt This one Yeah this one This one is gonna hurt