Lonely Road (feat. LVNPROOF)

I know I try to hide it But I can't keep me from myself It's always there reminding Me that I'm never free of the demons I see They whisper to my soul I fight em for control My life is what I owe And it's a lonely road I've been walking this walk for miles Many years Step after step in denial, what's my fear Am I afraid of my truth, truth That I hated my youth, youth Am I afraid of my death, death No I ran to that depth, depth I take pleasure in hell I'm at home in a cell My pain fuels my soul Resentment's out of control Some say my life I owe So where's my life to go I have nothing to show Addicted to liquor and blow My life is lower than low Right below the hole I need to grab a hold And walk this lonely road I know I try to hide it But I can't keep me from myself It's always there reminding Me that I'm never free of the demons I see They whisper to my soul I fight em for control My life is what I owe And it's a lonely road I'm sick of tired of hiding Back sliding, lying Setting fires, denying My addiction driving Drunk conviction divided Got me slowly dying Black hole is shining While the devil is smiling Middle finger to living My sins are unforgiven There is no hope for my soul There is no new beginning That's why I drown in the liquor Can't bear the reflection Not to mention rejection I blacked out recollection I'm afraid of correction But I pray for redemption I'm at a fork in the road An intersection of strength I don't deserve your affection But if you spare me my death I'll face my demons every moment till my very last breath I know I try to hide it But I can't keep me from myself It's always there reminding Me that I'm never free of the demons I see They whisper to my soul I fight em for control My life is what I owe And it's a lonely road How do I break free When I'm my worst enemy Caving on the inside But I'll still get up Get up and fight Failure's my addition It's a brutal competition But I'm still on a mission One foot front the other Till the day I die I know I try to hide it But I can't keep me from myself It's always there reminding Me that I'm never free of the demons I see They whisper to my soul I fight em for control My life is what I owe And it's a lonely road