Standing at the Oracle

Still stood at the door Piles of clothes upon the floor Seemed to ask me what I do You better fight now if you're going to It's just pushing through Dark through the window And my food was getting cold Were their voices in my ear It's a long way to let someone down from here Gotta break Standing at the oracle I can't Keep this up I'll tear out all my hair Heresy against old ways of thinking Less and talking more, I'm calling off all bets Maybe I know that everyone's watching Maybe I know they all expect something What if all of these hours mean nothing All I've been told is that it only gets tougher Call out to me Oh clear eyed Oracle The way she speaks A modern miracle Smooth stone against the head You open your mouth, but nothing comes out Open wide, but it's nothing real it's just noise The harshest noise I see it now No longer by my own volition To let you down Not perfect by my own admission And every call You couldn't make for me What was it called Stuck gonna nametag my decision Sometimes I find that I lack the strength to deal with All of the rules that you like to hang over my head It gives me strength to step onto stage with A violence i need to Get through the day now Controlled by all who Tell me the way how Gotta break Wishing someone will see my smoke signals and help me Out of my self defeating ways I wouldn't thank them And stare into the sun until our Eyes hurt because we Know they can't stop me I'll map the way out You start the car and Lock the doors Sweet gasoline Set me free Do it in the backseat All eyes they want me You never said it I think you meant it Lights stay on If this is it I couldn't give a shit 'Gainst the Concrete Weaker now Standing at the oracle I can't Stay this way it's me who ties my hands- -Ome boy with nothing good to do Something or I'll end up just like you