Missing Out

I've been holding my breath for months Trying hard not to care too much I've been tying knots with my own tongue 'cause I'm so scared I might fall in love Oh, I'm shutting down Oh, I I'm here turning off these feelings Talking myself out of Showing up to any parties Where I might see you around I'm here saying I don't want you I'm here curled up on the couch Trying to be okay with missing out Trying to be okay with missing out I know I never make much sense Social then I've already left I'm so cold that you can see my breath But then I'm asking you how you've been Oh, I'm terrified Oh, I I'm here turning off these feelings Talking myself out of Showing up to any parties Where I might see you around I'm here saying I don't want you I'm here curled up on the couch Trying to be okay with missing out On what we could've been 'Cause I'm scared of how it ends So I'm turning off these feelings