Battles and Blessings

Its been awhile since I took out some time to reflect Cuz I always end up thinking bout some shit I regret Been trying to heal but its hard to forgive and forget All them nights I never slept trying to manage this stress Its some people that I love that I no longer respect That did shit behind my back that I could never except Picture ya friend on the net trying to ruin ya rep And after it didn't work say they wish you the best Watched my lil cuz drag my name through the mud Now I'm up and he telling everybody we blood Its fucked up how money change the people you love And you cant trust anybody in the city I'm from All this pain got me numb like I'm off of the drugs Holding a grudge against the ones wit my name on they tongue But I shoulda peeped the signs and realized what it was Swallowed L's just to let them haters feel like they won Chose to be the bigger man when I could of been petty Put it all in Gods hands when shit could of got messy But I'm a king and this crown was supposed to be heavy All that fake shit getting cancelled like Malcom and Eddie When I fell back niggaz thought I fell off Wasn't nobody I could call with my back against the wall You ain't did what I did you ain't seen what I saw Don't tell me you a boss if you ain't never took a loss When I fell back niggaz thought I fell off Wasn't nobody I could call with my back against the wall You ain't did what I did you ain't seen what I saw Don't tell me you a boss if you ain't never took a loss