I don't have the energy to be angry anymore
I'm measuring the distance between me and the world
It's the only evidence I was ever here at all
I've never been a ghost
But I never felt alive
It takes everything I have
But this is where we draw the line
I will be the great wave
The uncaring ocean
Sent to destroy
I'll be the winter at its darkest
It's better than feeling worthless
To make our sorrows more bearable
I give up trying to find the balance anymore
I find myself lacking
I find myself asking if
This is the price we pay
For the curse of wondering why
And as the light begins to fade
And it becomes too much to take
I'm feeding all the fires that burn me to the ground
There is an art to self destruction
And I don't want to start again
There are the things you wish for
And the things you get
I just want the truth
Are the better days behind me?
I want to know the way
Show me the way
To make my sorrows more bearable
I give up trying to find the balance anymore
I find myself lacking
I find myself asking if
This is the price we pay
For the curse of wondering why
This is the price we pay for the curse of wondering why
The curse of wondering why
