Deadlock

I've wasted time, wasted my own sanity At home in hell, I am my own worst enemy One slip and now the pressure's caving in It's the same old shit but, shit, I'm not the same me Let it in, I've opened up my heart to something deadly Show me how to live when I can't breathe anymore And soak the diamond in the blood you wish that you could ignore Lost in oblivion Shit, here we go again I'll write the lines to my mind's sick symphony At home in hell but never let it get the best of me That's just the way it fucking goes I wish you could but you'll never know And you're a fool if you believe Believe in me And you're a fool to believe in me And now I'm counting each breath on death row Lay low, you're better on your own I'll pray the rain turns into snow That's just the way it fucking goes I wish you could but you'll never know And you're a fool if you believe Believe in me My every thought, my every thought is fucking diseased Naive I know but I still hope beyond belief That when it blows, the real ones know just what it means To find a home for the emptiness inside of me At home in hell with my misery It takes its toll on me It's fucking killing me It takes its toll on me Oh God, it's fucking killing me Fuck Can't control it, gotta own it Never gonna run if You can't walk the walk It takes its toll, it takes its toll on me Can't tell you where we went wrong But fuck it, life goes on That's just the way it always goes I wish you could but you'll never know That's just the way it always goes But you'll never know That's just the way it fucking goes I wish you could but you'll never know And you're a fool if you believe Believe in me My every thought, my every thought is fucking diseased Naive I know but I still hope beyond belief That when it blows, the real ones know just what it means To find a home for the emptiness inside of me At home in hell with my misery Shit, here we go again I'll write the lines to my mind's sick symphony At home in hell but never let it get the best of me