Trying

What will we do now we've lost it to trying? We've lost it to trying (trying) Trying to be content, ain't trying to be complacent Trying to stay grounded while I'm trying to break it Trying to stay motivated, my motor's waning I got invitation to the game, don't wanna overstay it Trying to be a great husband, trying to be a great artist Trying to find inspiration, trying to find where the heart is, yeah Trying to blow your mind and speaker Trying to buy it, never lease it, trying to get some time with Jesus Trying to find my genius, trying to hide my secrets Trying to find a reason, trying to trust my ideas Trying to speed the process, trying to stop reading comments Trying to find some confidence (I'm trying to find my keys) I'm trying to be respected, trying to hit the checklist Trying to reach perfection, trying to reach to leave an impression Trying to put this phone down for a second Trying to check it, I'm trying to live up to everything I expected Trying to buy some Bitcoin, trying to buy some loyalty Trying to find a producer who wants more than just a royalty I'm trying to innovate while everybody trying to imitate Trying to make it look like I ain't trying, damn All my life, all I ever did was (try) I'm just (trying) All my life, all I ever did was (try) I'm just (trying) Trying to stop trying and start trusting, trying to stop lusting Trying to stop cussing, ah f- it Trying to have my name in the top ten whenever that's in discussion I'm trying to make a major impact with an indie budget I'm trying to be present, trying to be faithful, trying to be grateful Trying to be gracious, but they try my patience I'm trying to be great, trying to find balance Trying to move forward, never go backwards Ain't trying to be average, live a life that matters Trying to outrun sadness, eat more salad Trying to leave my baggage but I keep on packing Trying to get back in to the road less traveled But I need my map, I delete my apps For a week then I'll be right back I'm trying to see me in a 'Lac On the West Side Highway doing ninety with the seat leaned way back Beat in the back I got baggage I ain't unpack I got things that I can't take back Words that I tell myself way worse than the ones when they attack Now one thing I know is for certain I'm gonna ruin everything trying to make it perfect All my life I've been searching For protection, I show the blemish They go to exit, no affection Show the love, don't finesse it Flesh and blood, not the weapon Load it up, get the message Phone 'em up, get the blessing Rolling up, codependent All my life, all I ever did was (try) I'm just (trying) All my life, all I ever did was (try) What if I showed up, could it be enough? What if I showed up, could it be enough? I can't be everything, that I wanna be for you But I'll be here, trying!